Saturday, January 29, 2011
By the way, I don't know why I don't find that staying here is so impressing as once living in Hawai'i or staying in Japan. Is it because of the weather or because of the poeple? Or is it because that staying here is not that kind of 'free' in the sense that I have to study hard which is a kind of burden.. Is it? Well, I'm doubt on that reason actually because I like studying. I do... Or is it because the way I used to study for my undergrad is different from the way I am studying here now? I don't know.. Or is it because of something else? Or perhaps, it might take some time to enjoy here and find myself 'well settled'... I don't know...
Anyways, I love to hear British dialect although sometimes it's irritating as well.. Don't get me wrong, I mean, i love to hear that accent but sometimes i find it too much..
Ah, I miss my guitar.. I left it in Jakarta.. I don't play quite well but playing guitar very often makes me feel better... Hmm... Gosh, I do hope my portable heater is coming this Monday. I've just purchased it online.. It's damn cold man.. Seriously...
Hey, i'll find my way to enjoy each moment here... :) I am sure I'll do..:)
Well.. it's been long time.. And now is 2011.. Well, it seems that my days here are a kind of non-stop working. Or perhaps, is it because I can't manage my brain? I mean, very possible what happens actually is that I'm not able to have my mind and thinking in peace. That's it, but not because of the 'things' themselves.
Anyways, I have just spent my time reading Tempo news online to find out what's going on in Indonesia. After a while, this browsing led me to a corner of the website; 'Reader Space' and I noticed the words "the cathers in the rye" mentioned there. I stopped, read and it says, more less, that the killers of famous persons, called the lone killers, like the novel of "The Cathers in the Rye"very much. I stopped for a while and then suddenly I remembered that I read this book once. Yes, it was given by a Japanese friend, Hiro. He said that after I read the book I should pass it to another person, Vicky. Indeed, the book was very impressive not only in its narration but also in the sense that its ability to 'provoke' you.. Provocative, I'd say.. And suddenly, it triggered me to write this blog again.. It's weird... Isn't it? I don't know..
Talking about the friends (more than one friend) who introduced me the novel, he, his brother and his girl friend (who is coming to visit this April) also mentioned about the movie they like so much "Into the wild" which I was only able to watch the movie in 2009 in Jakarta. Indeed, the movie was also provocative and just great..! The only thing that I couldn't find is a movie they recommended, a German movie, about some young guys, not sure if they were activist or kind of, who kidnapped a famous politician and there were strong dialogues about injustice and inequality in that movie. That's what they told me.. I never watch the movie though..
Anyways, it's 2 a.m. and it's minus 5 degree Celsius. It's cold. Despite that I'm wearing my shoes but still I feel my feet cold. Bloody cold.. But i hardly ever hear the word 'bloody' here.. It's strange. I thought that the 'bloody' word was famous expression here. Or ??? I don't know..
Anyways, there is a 10.000 word Literature Review that I am dealing with. I have to submit it in this coming mid feb. I am on my way to write it. Well, the idea is there. I downloaded many journals about the topic. It is about Fair Trade.. Fair Trade or Unfair Trade? Hmm.... Let's see... Somehow, I don't find much problem in the sense that I know clearly what things to put down. My consultation with my supervisor on last Thursday was so helpful. She's helpful I'd say. She encourages me.. Gosh, I thought that I didn't need an encouragement.. lol. I thought I was tough enough to handle things. But it turns, I think everybody needs that..
Another thing. Well, basically this is about personal thing. But I just don't want to write it here, in public. Well, this blog is public, isn't it? In the very beginning of writing this blog, i was so naive to think that it was a kind of 'private' thing until I found that some people I know comments about this blog. lol. Well, the point of what I am going to say is that in only months, say 4 months or so, there is a huge thing happens between me and someone else. That makes me come to conclusion that 'principle' is not an easy thing to keep.. I mean, it's hard to believe that a huge change could happen just in months. Not on my side though.. But let's see... Thinking about it, I try to be positive as much as I can.. I don't know... Or, perhaps this is my problem. Once I set my heart for something, it's hard for me to find that I can't make it despite the hard efforts I put it on.. Could be. That's the problem I think. I'm not that quite easy to change from one thing to another thing or to accept a condition where a thing changes so rapidly.. Particularly, when you work on it over years. However, that does not necessarily mean that I am not capable for quick adjustment either.. Hmmm....
Anyways, life is good, isn't it?
Did I mention about my visit to Switzerland on the last winter break? Nope.. Well, it was just lovely.. Thanks a million Gaby for that... Yes, that's a wonderful trip; a lot thoughts..