Why Management?

That's the question. For shake of what?

A TURNING POINT OF LIFE?

A turning point of life? I pray for that. These two weeks really amazing for some reasons. First, I like the systematic way of the module trained and I think that's what I need how to improve LPAM. Starting from the discourse of accountability, transparency, ligitimated and things like that to strategic planning, project planning with various tools, budgeting, building and maintaining network with stakeholders and financial sustainability. Second, and this is the huge thing. I knew that I couldn't keep staying in a place, in blocks, in a building for two weeks with tight schedule but I could made it after all. Yes, I could follow all the sesssions except for one session just because I was just too tired at that time. The 'X' factor if you could say so. And she is here now.

Jakarta for Another Training

I am in Jakarta at the moment. Actually, coming to Jakarta is not my fave things to do. Too crowded, messy and hot. I am pretty lucky because the training is at Indonesian University. There are lot plants here and it's cool. I gonna be here for at least 10 days. I'm attending NGO Management training. Not pretty sure if I'll get new knowledge on it but sure new things are there. At least, compiling things in systematic ways as what academician always do. And yes new friends and network.

Couple days ago before coming here I was with Treena sent by CA London Office for external evaluation over the tsunami and quake response programs. She's smart and it seemed that she enjoyed the day with us. I could see how she laughed freely. I mean she just that cool. She was Malaysian but living in Southern Netherlands. I think I should write her email just for discussion. Her thinking is fresh and seems cool.

Ah everybody turns to Facebook now. That's cool., I am just thinking of it before making my own. It seems cool..

One Work Just Completed

I completed my report to TdH Neth and it's interesting. It's little bit relief. Others await though. But one by one would be completed. Tomorrow an evaluator from London is coming and we have a plan to go for field visit on 20. I think I have to prepare better for her coming so that her time with LPAM could be effectively used.

Hectic Days

It could be that the right word for these days, 'hectic'. Some of us fell to sick though. I'm getting recover quick, Jaya is okay now but Eka still on bed. Weather adjustment, anomaly or global warming.. But you can't decide what wheter it shall be like before. Things change enomoursly.

I completed my report to TdH tonight and it was a relief. I need to re-check it again to Jaya tomorrow, ops I mean today. It's 2 a.m right? Oh my god, I have a meeting with Gea at 8:30 this morning.
All right, next time again...to continue this writing..........

Another Last Party?

It seems like tonight is the last party for FAO Nias. It's small party though. It's not always easy to say good bye after all. I can see that. Well, but that's life man...! Things come and things go and only the memories left..

People Come and Go

People come and go. That's the rule. In many cases, yup. That's life and fact of life. I'm writing from FAO Nias office now. Just copule meters from my staying in this island. They have beuatiful, natural and unique office. It was sort of working and having holiday sitting here. This office wil be closed precisely at the end of this month. And I use their wi fi internet connection. At least for these couple of days, I'm still can access it's connection.

Not only about the internet connection I will be miss of course. The guys here as well. They are pretty good, friendly and that's it, cool guys. They will leave soon and this compound will be lonely again. There will be new comers perhaps not sure how they would be look like but hopefully good guys too.

We have co-operation with FAO Nias, small scale though for distributing its support for farmers that are seeds and fertilizers. At the same time, we are building our farming program. Good match after all.

Hey by the way, I have just finished my report to TdH Netherlands and tomorrow I'm going to send the hard copy. :) It's realief after all.
Thanks
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Quake

yesterday, twice quake hit this island again. it was little bit strong.. well, it surprised me though. i thought i had an headache after writing the report but it's not that, the quake.

well, after the leaving of iskandar 'n debbie from mango, i enjoy my routine again. it's okay now, got some ideas and exiciting to keep alive. yeah, alive man..

i got a pic when i was in pulau aceh.

We've A Dream

These days, we are pretty busy for building a foundation for community development. We've a dream to empower the farmer's life through farming. Our main goal is to reduce the import of fruits and vegetable from Sumatra. Instead of importing, we've dream that the farmers in this island can produce their own fruits and vegetable consumed in this island. At the end the economy will run better and they could have income better for sending their kids to schools and to regard that farming is a promising livelihood instead of just as for surviving. At least we expect there is a modern farming in this island. We also think to decrease the dependece from the fertilizer industry. Two of staff were sent to Java learning organic farming.

We have a dream and we started from here

Things Okay Except

Things okay except that the guest coming are sucks. With the frame of superiority they came to save us.. Duh, what a pity..!! I hate that. I don't understand how they come to pretend to be smart in which they are not. Stupid. They just wasting time and money for pretending training something.

I'm fed up with this guy named Iskandar. Enough! this creature I don't know where he's from or what capacity he had but pretending to be my boss, commander, the saviour.., what insane... If not by the previous guy from Christian Aid, I would have kicked his ass. Well, I don;'t know

I love my Mac

Ah yes, It's beautiful. Fed up with windows and i just found mac's cool man.. I love it. I hope there would be no more trouble with comp things. I JUST LOVE IT.

Trip to Jogja

blank.. things are blank

Arrived in NIas Today

I arrived in Nias this morning. I straightly joined the weekly meeting that was already started by Livelihood Coordinator, Aris. I was glad to find that all the weekly reports of every division were on paper. We agreed to have monthly based report. I think there are better development of the staff capacity now. But at the same time I think they still need to be adviced for couple things especially on defining the principles and administrative things. I mean there should be different on approaching those things. We agreed that we couldn't negociate on the principle but it's okay for the technical things.

At 3 then I and Jaya attended the FORNIHA meeting. It was a meeting to build the local NGO forum. I was also glad that we moved forward to the establishing a small committee to handle the first Assembly Meeting on 30 and 31. Things are just cool.

Oh ya, btw Annant and Ray are coming tomorrow. It's beautiful that they could come here to visit us and to talk to the organizations of FORNIHA members. I talked abt this in my presentation on the training and they were eager to know more. I think I was successful in convincing them that DRR issue could be talked to the forum. I'm very happy on that.

Next week it's going to be another busy days though. I have to attend the meetings and doing the reports to TdH and to CA as well . Then, I'll go to Yogya for fund raising training. Before that I have to stop to Medan for bringing the car to the workshop for the total fixing and modification when possible. Then before arriving to Jogyakarta, I have to stop again to Jakarta for purchasing my mac. My current notebook will be used by Jaya. Besides, it's time to have mac. I'm pissed off by all the troubles of the windows. I hate it. It's time for changing.


Hey, still no news? Or busy days? Or is there anything I talked wrong? Sorry if there is something I did wrong in which it's not my intention to do so.

Life Is Cool

Life is cool. No matter how the feelings go up and down, up and down but it's still great. Yes, it is. Sometimes, too much things to do but in so many times, life is relaxing. Sometimes, it's hard but very often it's just okay. After all, what people might need is to keep balancing between work and personal life between the dream and reality, between ambition and lay down. Balancing is perhaps the right way to say so.

Another point I think is the way we react on facts and findings. Keep being positive or perhaps sometimes we should be little bit negative if not pessimistic. The portion of being positive should be bigger though.

Last night, we really enjoyed the party at French Red Cross compound. Chit chat, beer and music. After all, it was my first time to come to FRC's party although Pascal couple times invited me for their last parties but never able to come as i was pretty often on the field. Last night's party was cool. We all enjoyed it; well, some not for one or other reasons. But still I and other enjoyed it until early morning. Others, the gangs, didn't show up. Perhaps they were still on the field. We went home at 2:30 and still chit chat for a while until 3. FAO & WFPSS guys were cool. Seems that they who light up the night along with the Insane but Cool German Camrads. French were always mad. I like them. Oh ya UNORC guys as well.. Ross would be mad if she were still there..:D At six I headed to airport for morning flight to Medan and I had a wonderful sleep for one hour. Here now at Medan's office. Well.., Home again...

I and Ika are going to Aceh on Sunday for DRR training. There I'm going to meet Ray and Aruni. Aruni is not comin to Nias. the schedule is too tight perhaps. Soon after the DRR I have to return to Nias for FORNIHA meeting. We are establishing local NGOs forum. On the next meeting we are going to discuss for first Assembly Meeting and declaration of the forum. And yes, well., something secret... is another reason to come back soon. :)

The office is getting better managed. Thanks to Ika for that. Reconstruction team is on the way and livelihood team is about to rock the island in couple months. I have to prepare for the campaign/publication on it. My car is comin on Sunday for fixing here in Medan. It'd take for two or three weeks for that and bicycle is perfect option. Except that I have to come home earlier then just because it aint good for cyclying at late night though. I hope I can manage it.

Well.. life is cool, isn't it?

Pics

Couple weeks ago when I and Frans were on our way to go South. It's always adventure to pass this east coast road of this island. I was still lucky though, my car didn't stuck like that one.
If that happened, it would be another real adventure.

The town I live now named Gunungsitoli. It's been already 1 and half year.
It's small town but I like it. Fresh air, fresh food, pure in many things.

I swim here and I rent a room around here. It's beautiful. It's kind of secret living here though.
I mean I never told anybody in office where I live actually.
It was kind of hiding place for a while in busy days.

Feel Cool

These couple weeks are just cool. I like it. A lot things happened especially for my work. Next week I'm going to Aceh for DDR (Disaster Risk Reduction) training. It's in the Pulau Aceh, a very small island in tip of Sumatra, a part of Aceh. There, I'll meet Ray, the guy handled tsunami response of Christian Aid India Office and Aruni. Aruni might not be able to come to Nias.

I also get my provisional acceptance for a short course at Wageningen. Hah,.. beautiful.. one more step for coming to Europe, the NEC scholarship application. It would be easy.... Wow., it's beautiful man.. I'll spend a month there instead of the two weeks I have for the training. It's gonna be my month off from the jobs. Wonderful...

I love it.

It's Coming Step by Step

I’ve just got the email from Wageningen. It's good news and I have to prepare better before depaturing. It will be the November though but I wish to spend also another two or three weeks visiting ISS or other european countries or perhaps spending my day off in Asia; Cambodia or Soul or Manila? We'll see..

And the fund from London is coming too. We're so excited. There'll be a celeberation this week. We prepare things better though. Aruni from London is coming at the end of this May as well. It gonna be lovely days. She's smart and there would be a lot discussions with her. She's humble too. We love to have guest visiting us.

I was thinking of buying my new guitar here. My guitar left in Medan and I don't want to bring it here. Oh yea, another one, it seems bicyling is a fun one. Also more exercises.. i'm thinking of going for swimming regularly. Swimmng on the sea is always great. Oh yes, snorkling equipments. I have to buy it this month too. I'll have juicy life, man...

Hey, it's always good to find any news from you.. Love it and I don't know how long this feeling will last.. I don't know...
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India Pics Left

feel gloomy

I feel gloomy. Things just inside my head and thinking of you. I often sense this. good news is coming. Hopefully it’ll be sooner.

Gagri Panchayat

Palace on hill

Cow is everywhere

another cow

Jantar Mantar

City Palace of Udaipur

Beautiful Lake

of the orners in New Delhi


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India at Glance through Jantar Mantar

Jantar Mantar; Protesting Site
People Action 2007

One of the town corners of New Delhi

Strong Women in Village of Gagri, Udaipur, Rajastan

Beautiful View of India Village, Udaipur, Rajastan

Much Contemplation

Kid's always amazing

Visiting India was just kind of eye-opener with a lot new perspectives and reflection. It was extremely different from the last year’s visit to Japan. It was a kind of two incredibly situations.

Arriving at 19 March at 9 pm local time, first impression was that the way of people driving vehicles that was so hurried with the horns every second and driving was kind of fighting if you could say so.

The next day 20 March, we visited Christian Aid India Office. Here I got brief perspective about India at general; poverty, SEZ (Special Economic Zone), dalit, adivasi, caste issues and little about tsunami programs.

On 21 to 22 March, I attended the Gender Training held by Jagori at CNI (Church of North India). All the participants are the CA partners Delhi based and we the four participants from Indonesia’s partners (me from LPAM, Lily from YTBi, Natalia from YEU and Linda from PKPA). Facilitators, Sheema and Malini from Jagori, were smart. The training was very participatory. We draw the conclusion that from the deprived groups, woman was at the bottom of the bottom line. The other days was exploration of how the patriarchy system put stigma, stereotype to woman and how in micro level (within organization) could fight for this gender equality.

The other day, 23 March was visiting three CA’s partner offices; SEEDS, JAGORI and HRLN (Human Rights Law Network).

It was actually from Malini and Sheema that I knew the information about Jantar Mantar. Previously, there was a sort of people's meeting supported by HRLN named People Tribunal but I missed that as it was held on 21 to 22. But I promised myself that I would not miss this opportunity to attend the People Action 2007 Meeting. Sheema explained little bit about that and handed me the brochure of the action.

In spite of spending the weekends visiting Taj Mahal like others two; Lily and Linda, I and Natalia planned to visit Jantar Mantar on the Saturday. We arrived there and at the whole spot were protesting banners. I tried to sense the bottom line of India if you could say so. There I found the People Action 2007. The issues raised were varied, community displaced on the behalf of development, right for natural resources, SEZ (Special Economy Zone), child labor and employment, communal prejudice, discrimination and so on.

It was a kind of mix feeling to sit and join the protesters. There was a kind of feeling that I had to stay longer there and it recalled my memories of my past. Yeah, it’s been long time I didn’t organize that kind of and suddenly I just feel comfortable despite the smell of the cow and things. They were from the villages with their families and staying there for couple days. the songs they sung although I didn’t understand the meaning but the songs gave them spirit and it touched me.

Jantar Mantar was a spot eye-opener for me to see the India at glance especially to see what the Indian colleague’s fighting for. I'll be back someday.. It's fabolous.

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Seing India Through Jantar Mantar

Aley

It's good I can go home earlier today. Yes, tomorrow I'm attending the CSO (Civil Society Organization) Assessment Workshop held by UNDP. So, perhaps I can go to bed earlier tonight. We are considering to attend the workshp three of us; me, Aris and Serena. I heard that UNDP provides one sit for one organization but lets see tomorrow. Usually, it's not as strict as that. I also think to take Aris and Albert to see the FAO livelihood project if not tomorrow perhaps the day after tomorrow. I'm thinking of having a cooperation with FAO. They are just pretty good in agriculture so we can learn things from them. Besides, the guys down here are just so friendly.

I had a chat this early morning around 1 or 2 a.m. with Aleyamma. It's always great. It took almost a year didn't talk to her except that she keeps posting things in the G5 google groups so I can still have idea about her but not personnal emails until this morning we had a chat. Awsome, she's just like that; thinking fast, fresh and rebellious. I didn't know that she has a good collection pics in the web until last night she showed me. Very nice.. http://www.flickr.com/photos/aleyamma/ . She also gave me helpful link about India http://www.english.emory.edu/Bahri/communism.html, http://www.english.emory.edu/Bahri/Kerala.html, http://www.newint.org/issue241/model.htm http://www.indiaresource.org/news/2005/1034.html Talking to her is just gorgeous.. She tried to hook me up with Saurav, a friend of her, a journalist living in Delhi in which I think my next travel to India will be inspiring. I had no idea at all about India before, even if when i tried to do a brief search on the web last couple weeks until I chat with her. So, I'm exciting to visit India..
THANKS SO MUCH ALEY...

Itchy Eye to India

Couple weeks ago my top left eye kept itching. I knew that it was a sign but not knowing exactly what it meant. Not to mention that I believe on superstition but a lot things can’t be explained with logics. Some might call it irrational but it exists just only few explanation about that.

Back to the point. Yes, my top left eye itch and I suppose the meaning is this. I’m going to visit India in this coming March. Aruni from CA London office makes that. She organized the exposure trip on the theme of Advocacy and Gender issue. How the two issues especially gender is integrated or programming. That’s awesome. Institutionally, LPAM concerns on the issue but just doesn’t dig up the frame work of how to implement that issue on the work program. Therefore, in these two years program, there’s no any specific exploration on that. We once sent staff to SATUNAMA for understanding the issue so that she could arrange and share the frame work and things like that but somehow that never happened. It could be because that’s pretty new for her. But now, I think I’ll use this chance to do much exploration about that.. Thank you so much Aruni and India, I’M COMING.!

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This pics were taken from Ivan, Mike and Indri's visit from Christian Aid office. These pics were taken by Mike

Earth is used as the materials for blocks reducing
the use of cement, sand and stones

This technology is from Thailand introduced by Geoffrey.
It provides livelihood for the local community

Ivan made a try..

I and Ivan discussed the process of the housing reconstruction




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Returned to Nias

I returned to Nias on last Wednesday and I just felt fresh. I was sort of trapped in Medan office just because there were a lot things to do and couldn't go anywhere. But here, I feel fresh again. I went down there for monitoring and found things run smoothly. There are a lot things to do but exciting. Couple days ago Aruni from Lond gave me a call and I've just checked her email about exposure trip to India about gender and advocacy issue. That's was wonderful. I like it. Exciting. I think I will learn a lot from the Christian Aid's partners there. It must be amazing experiences.. I love it. It will be in this coming March, at the end of the month.

Those Days

I don't know.. I perhaps should be a batman.. staying up late.. but I just feel fresh working at night. Itsn't good though but hmm... Well,.. I wonder if I can afford to change that habits..

Anyway, I remember this..

My Japanese Big Dad, Takeo Odaka SMI (Sake Master International). I miss him a lot.

He's fun and I like one of the songs of his harmonica. I liked that.

Great buddies...
Yulia, Sheena, Adriana, Aleyamma, Hye Sung, Miyuki
Su Yan, Chomrouen, Miwa

Beautiful...
Adriana, Aleyamma and Su Yan

Road to Hale Kuahine.. I miss it a lot..

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:)

Good Luck! You are on the right track. I believe you can do that as usual..
I pray for you...

Mekong, 31/12/06. Hope is always there







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thinkingofyou

Can't Sleep, thinking of you... just wonder how things goin on with you now

this pic was taken 20/10/06 in Sua Lake Japan

carla bruni days

I just love the songs. My days filled with that songs. It becomes my companion doing the works at night now. I checked on the web last night that and she's actually and Italian but really 'french'.

I'm still stuck here in Medan. I suppose to go back to Nias but I still can't do that yet. The financial matter lay down.. I can't stand on that. I might need be more patient. The problem then is I can't make any financial decision toward new plan. But well, I hope that this week that will be clear and I can return to Nias. I have an appointment with Kusnadi UNDP though to submit him the early situation for the emergency response in this Friday. Or I think I'll just ask the staff to copy the video and the pictures and give him.

This afternoon I got email from TdH Netherlands but it was just late for them having that decision. We'd be more than happy if they just decided it. But let's see...

Tomorrow, I'm going to CA office here in Medan. London office doesn't reply for my email yet. They must be reading on it and hopefully this week I get the answer.

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Warming Up

No much thing to do these days except for completing the annual report ( and still...), attending the annual meeting of Walhi Sumut, meeting with fellows there, and do little stuffs. This week's sort of warming up. But I think I'll be busy next week. Plan's shown the schedule for next weeks's meetings and there are still more pages to do for the report; narration and financial report. I have to discuss much to the finance staffs here. They are little bit slow these days.

I talked with Willy today about the proposal he wrote about the environmental issues as one of the impacts of the reconstruction over the tsunami and quake response and it seems good. There are some items needed to be improved but for the whole, that's great. I mean, he has the capability in doing that. He might just need doing that often.

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No Much These Days

No much thing to do these days except for completing the annual report ( and still...), attending the annual meeting of Walhi Sumut, meeting with fellows there, and do little stuffs. But I think I'll be busy next week. Plan's shown the schedule for next weeks's meetings and there are still more pages to do for the report; narration and financial report. I have to discuss much to the finance staffs here. They are little bit slow these days.

I talked with Willy today about the proposal he wrote about the environmental issues as one of the impacts of the reconstruction over the tsunami and quake response and it seems good. There are some items needed to be improved but for the whole, that's great. I mean, he has the capability in doing that. He might just need doing that often.

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Ay

2007.. officially... I spent my new year's eve here in Medan. And in this big town, sometimes I just feel so lonely. I don't know. It wasn't like to be used. Yesterday night I wanted to celeberate the new year eve with somebody, someone closed to me but it's little bit awkward when people gathered together but I was just here alone.. I hang around the town for a while but then I found convinience to just keep staying at home and office as well.. Trying to review my whole year in 2006 but the beer made me fall asleep at least sleepy so I didn't feel fresh to do that.

Only today I went out with Novi and her son, Jeffry, Vera and his friend Agus and Fauzul. We went to starbucks for a coffe and then for a movie. I was with Jeffrey enjoying Happy Feet. It was pretty good movie. The message was that being different was okay.. It was good yet it taught me that there'll be always someone along with you in whatsover you are. Yeah, I guess so.. Then I had meal along with Fauzul while the rest went home after the movie. I and Fauzul continued for a beer at RC. No bad music though..

2006. I reviewed a little bit my years in the 2006 and I found pretty happy in what I did along the year except for couple things just like taking TOEFL test. That's the problem of being perfectionist. I wanted to have good preparation before taking the TOEFL test but the problem then was that I wasn't consistent for the preparation. I set time for that actually, every evening before going to bed but that's it. Beer was always there along with others to end our exhausted days (or perhaps I regarded that exhausted by myself?) I don't know. But I have to change that. I am thinking of moving for another house down there... I have to have a good time management for the 2007. I have to.. In this 2007 there should a huge change in me.. should be.. at least I have to make my life balance; between working and social life. Not to say I'm getting older but I'm not getting younger either. I mean besides following my mind and my temptation, there's should be also a re-thinking over things mainly personnal life. Yeah.. Job is always there no matter what.. It will be always there..

Dragon in 2007.. What's supposed to be?

xmas

For this xmas, I went home for 4 days. I departed from Gunungsitoli at 1 pm and arrived in Teluk Dalam 15 minutes before 6 pm. On the way, I used to drive fast but just didn’t know I drive slower than ever. I felt a sort of thing that I had to do so. It was kind of superstition that there’s something that I had to do so. Yes, it was right. I supposed to visit my parents directly but I stopped at Fali’s house just couple miles from where I received his text message informing me that his dead had just passed away. Soon after we arrived at his home, it was a sort of emergency action to help them; providing the generators as they didn’t have the electric yet, purchased things for the emergency needs and things like that. I called all the staffs down there and only in minutes we hand in hand to help after it reached 11 and it was time to go home visiting my parents. I kept being there until one day after the funeral because I had to go back to Gunungsitoli for meetings.

Anyway, I’m happy I can visit home, staying for couple nights. I enjoyed there. I also visited my grandma, actually my grandma’s younger sister. She’s okay now, better than when I met her last year. She had good memories of things. Pretty good even. And suddenly it brought back my memories of the past.

I’m also glad that I can still find how people in the village hand in hand to do the community works cleaning the village yard. I, Eka and Willy also spent one day for visiting the site project in Hiliamaeta in which I was very happy for what we’ve done there.

My Grandma is getting better than the last time I visited her after the disaster. She still has good memories of past times. She also keeps talking about the respecting of the parents and the ancestors. We heard a lot stories about that from her. We loved her.

We, LPAM, are very happy that we can serve the people reconstructing their houses after the disaster. The people deserve to get good houses just because actually all the NGOs, UN Agencies and BRR funds and donation are for them.. We work for them...!

One of the houses in Desa Hiliamaeta

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Not what way but how to go to that way

Hopefully, at the end of this year, I have couple days doing nothing, going away for a while from the works, from the screen, from the phones and all that stuffs. I'm thinking to go to Bukit Lawang as I used to do except that I'm not sure how the place looks like now. Yeah, after the 2003's flood, the place was totally changed and damaged. I'm not sure if it's already recovered now. Hearsay, it is already okay but still I'm not sure abt that.

Carla Bruni... The songs are just awsome, so mello with the guitar sounds.. It's just so perfect. I realize how the French are just so mello.. Sylvie or Sylvia left it for us.. Another side of their fave on hard musics. Thanks Sylvie and Sylvia. You guys are just wonderful with your stories of life and now with the musics you left for us.

Back to the point.,. with all that happened in this life, I feel how great life is. A lot things happen, a lot lessons-learnt, a lot good people around and huge opportunity to make life as you wish. Isn't that wondeful?

I'm actually considering of couple things I want do in life for the years ahead. I'm thinking of extending my service for LPAM for another two years. To build the strong and sustainable organization. I need to build the foundations for that. At the same time, the obsession for pursuing my grad school is pushing.. I'm thinking of going back to normal life, yeah going to school. The time will show what part I'll fall in. Another obsession are just there... Sometimes, it's not easy to choose what the right way on the right time. Actually, it's not on my plan for extending my service for another two years. But, that's it, to finish what I started. What I'm afraid is if I leave LPAM and it will start from the zero point again. At least, it will be more challenge and huge. Just because it's not yet established well. There are couple things to do more just such as to train the staffs for making the plan, appeals for donors, project management, administrative works and building good network. If the organization works well, at least there will be more poeople helped. There will be more people get benefit of the works. Besides, our committement to the people whose houses damaged by the disaster is not fullfilled all yet. Or perhaps I'll do a sort of combinging. Yeah, while do the job, I will attend the trainings and things for the capacity building and again at the same time doing a better preparation for going to grad school.. Yeah,. that sounds cool... That sound acceptable, right? Hmm..... let me think about that deep before having a decision. Thinking deep...

Feel Good

I feel good. :) Inspite of the unfinished annual report, I just feel good. My day started with the book from Sylvie from Germany. It's pretty cool 'Days of War Nights of Love'. Bambang got 'The old man and the sea' :) Sylvie might think he's just a pretty old buddy.., :) Bambang handed me the book this morning before I left for work. Hey, we love the bench... we are only three left here. The rest have gone for the holiday. But I like it.

Today, I did some writing for the annual report. It's not finished though but still I'm exciting to do that. Hopefully I can finish it before the end of this year. I also made a decision to participate with the Walhi Sumut group for the emergency response over the Mandailing Natal quake. Another one..:(

I received calls from Alex, Bang Parlin, Bang Monang and my dad as well. It's just great. Then tonight's meeting was better. Aleyamma also posted the people tribunal on World Bank Group. I like that.

Hopefully, Mike's flash disk could be sent tomorrow to London.

Well,.. if I get a call from Horep early in the morning and then I'll pick them up to airport. But if not, that's okay too just because I have the meeting again tomorrow morning at 9. Well.,.. life's just great. I'm exciting and I will be always. LIfe's just great...!:)

Novi, the lonely buddy.. How poor she is.. She's sleeping on the bench. She'd like to talk to me but I'm writing my blog. THere she is, fall asleep. It's not because there's something wrong with her but what I understand is that she just need a buddy to talk to. I know the stories she has always bored but I think deep inside her there a good heart. She's struggling for her life though. Good luck for you Novi. She's leaving for Medan tomorrow as well.... and the bench will only for me perhaps ? Bambang will go down for the vessel. The vessel doesn't arrive from Banda Aceh yet. The weather's just not okay for sailing.. Delay.. He'll work the whole weeks until first week of January perhaps. I will too but I'm thinking of spending my xmas with my parents and my younger bro. My older bro and my sister are still in Aceh. They are not coming back..

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This evening I didn't feel good mood. In the middle of Vera's party I went to office and I did arranged the working papers. It's done a part. I don't think that I start to get bored. I am not and I hope I won't be until I finish what I started. There are still a lot couple things to do with the jobs. Building foundations for the sustainable organization. It will take another one or two years. I know that there are a lot things in mind, a lot things to do for myself but I think I can put that aside for a while. There will be a right time for that. Anyhow, I have to prepare for it as well. Huge effort for that.

I have no still clue for this xmas and new year. I have no clue at all or perhaps I need a really break. Yeah, that sounds cool.. Going somewhere where I can be lost. Hmm.. Sounds good idea.. All right., let me do the plan for that.

My Big Dad Sake Master

My Bid Dad International Sake Master created me a blog. It's in Japanese though..:)

http://duman.exblog.jp/4314271

http://nias.exblog.jp/3787622

Thanks Dad. I miss you, mom and sister....

Tomorrow's Field Visit

I suppose to go to bed now but I can't. I know that I will have a busy day tomorrow, field visit with Christian Aid guys from London, Ivan and Mike. We had the meeting this morning. They were just cool. I like that. I met Mike on the Tsunami Learning Review in last September. I've just known Ivan though. Aruni said that he's a good guy. Well, I feel so as well. We will spend much time tomorrow so I think I will know them especially Ivan better.

I'm still thinking if I will come along with them the day after tomorrow to Lolomatua or staying in Teluk Dalam having discussion with the guys down there. I'm not pretty sure yet. Let's see tomorrow.

I'm thinking of having annual holiday from this Dec 22 to 4 or 5 Jan perhaps. I don't know. I'm still considering about that. My annual report is still far away from what I want. I don't even start it yet. I wrote the outline but there will be still long journey for that...

My goodness, it's already 6th of Dec and the deadline for NOHA MUNDUS is 15th. Hmmm..,, I don't know... I need one more recommendation letter and still I don't set up time for the iBT yet. There's offering from ICTE posted by Aleyamma today for the human rights issue. I don't know...

I visited TdH Netherlands office in Jakarta on last Saturday and a new guy will be sent in Nias. It'll be another busy day. Yeah...

In office, it's hard to expect the financial staffs to do the best of their own or perhaps I expect too much on them? I don't know...

No clue yet for things.

It's Lonely

I and Bambang sit here on this bench feeling blue like Phil Collin's lyrics. They've gone but they are here still, the memories. Their smiles, cute smiles and the stories we shared...

Bambang received Sylvi's email and showed me. It's great, adventorous as she is. Sylvia supposed to arrive Medan tonight.

Four Monkeys in the tree, that's what Bambang said. I don't know he might think that we onced lived in different world in the different life. It's kind of dejavu here,..
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